August

Rosaura and Pedro are back at the ranch; had a daughter named Esperenza, and because Rosaura cannot breast feed, I was put in charge of feeding Esperenza. I could not feed her the same way I fed Roberto, but I fed her the way Nacha fed me: with older people’s food. Esperenza’s a lot like me: she spends most of her time in the kitchen, she eats like I did at her age, and she is the last child of her mother. I was sure that Rosaura would not bind Esperenza to the terrible family tradition of caring for her mother until the day she died, but Rosaura, as it turns out, had every means of keeping the tradition! How could she do such a thing!!! How could she force something so inhumane on her own daughter?! I cannot believe it! I have to stop Rosaura from doing this to Esperenza. To make matters more confusing, Pedro is back in my life, and John left to pick up his aunt for the wedding. The night John formally proposed to me, Pedro came to me and forced me to make love with him! I finally felt fulfilled and was reminded of my great love for Pedro. I do not know what to do! I am mad at Pedro for leaving me and never fighting for me, but at the same time I love him more than anything! And now that I have been with Pedro and know what true love is like, how can I ever live with John?